Tuesday, August 30, 2005
boo.
i'm home again.
haha. dunnoe la.
sian.
on mc.
this time dr loh gave me more medication lol.
got wad muscle relaxant lol.
haha.
now after taking medication.
at least i feel much better dunnoe la.
haha
i wonder how am i supposed to relax.
when like so mani things happening at one time lol.
haha
but i know i muz hang on la.
i'm trying lol.
yah.
tracie - hm haha. thanks .
i know i very weak la.
but then this period i like not enough sleep olso lol.
so thats why fall asleep lol.
this coming sunday me working alone.
and i'm serious!.
tracie and nai nai got exam.
karling goin food fair.
den twin got assignment need to rush.
hm. onli got edmund and lay ghee.
eh dunnoe da spelling la.
no darling somemore.
goin crazee man.
hm.
mebbie its high time i learn how to be independent le lol.
oh btw. i thot it thru le.
i most likely not staying in jc ba.
unless my promos really really very good lol.
but then yah.
nah. hopes are low lol.
so next year my choices are.
-shatec
-nyp taking nursing
-tp taking htm
dunnoe yet la.
everything is not final olso la.
=)
i'm home again.
haha. dunnoe la.
sian.
on mc.
this time dr loh gave me more medication lol.
got wad muscle relaxant lol.
haha.
now after taking medication.
at least i feel much better dunnoe la.
haha
i wonder how am i supposed to relax.
when like so mani things happening at one time lol.
haha
but i know i muz hang on la.
i'm trying lol.
yah.
tracie - hm haha. thanks .
i know i very weak la.
but then this period i like not enough sleep olso lol.
so thats why fall asleep lol.
this coming sunday me working alone.
and i'm serious!.
tracie and nai nai got exam.
karling goin food fair.
den twin got assignment need to rush.
hm. onli got edmund and lay ghee.
eh dunnoe da spelling la.
no darling somemore.
goin crazee man.
hm.
mebbie its high time i learn how to be independent le lol.
oh btw. i thot it thru le.
i most likely not staying in jc ba.
unless my promos really really very good lol.
but then yah.
nah. hopes are low lol.
so next year my choices are.
-shatec
-nyp taking nursing
-tp taking htm
dunnoe yet la.
everything is not final olso la.
=)
--lemme be your guardian angel--
11:25 AM
11:25 AM
Monday, August 29, 2005
um.
1st september finally reaching la.
hm. dunnoe la.
happy and sad lol.
if i tell you guys i'm okay.
eh uh-oh.
nope.
but i'm coping well lol.
yep.
finally can say le.
happy coz my darling will be promoted.
coz he finally can do new things liao.
but sad coz he's leaving parkway.
and i tink most likely permanently lol.
dunnoe la.
gotta to learn how to adapt to not having him around AH.
i tink next time work will purely be work liao.
so different lol.
haha
twin thanks ah. =)
i will think of you one.
okie haha. and for goodness sake please take care of yourself can?
aiyoh.
sleep more la.
haha
karling yap.
i know i made you worry lol.
but if you wanna me to treat the matter liek nothing.
i'm sorry i cannnot.
but dun worry i'll walk out of it one.
really.
juz gimme more time.
its me ba.
so nothing to do with you and anyone.
so no need feel sad okie?
darling. thanks.
i get wad you mean.
i know wad to do.
how to stand strong.
after so mani things happen.
first rong hui den you.
yah. =)
i'll grow up.
dun worry yep.
oh haha.
did i mention the reason why i'm home today. haha
coz i'm sick.
runnning high fever lol.
have been sleeping since juz now came back from poly clinic.
haha
so yah. boohoo.
but onli one day mc.
will see tmr hows i'm feeling lol.
haha
found out that i'm rather used to goin to the doc alone le.
parents now olso dun care one la.
no bf.
no darling. haha
so yah. i mus be independent lol.
oh pple never go to the polyclinic on mondayss!!.
they make you wait like two whole hours.
and thats at least.
-pengz-
haha
dunnoe la.
coz today wanna save money so went polyclinic instead of family doc lol.
hm =)
1st september finally reaching la.
hm. dunnoe la.
happy and sad lol.
if i tell you guys i'm okay.
eh uh-oh.
nope.
but i'm coping well lol.
yep.
finally can say le.
happy coz my darling will be promoted.
coz he finally can do new things liao.
but sad coz he's leaving parkway.
and i tink most likely permanently lol.
dunnoe la.
gotta to learn how to adapt to not having him around AH.
i tink next time work will purely be work liao.
so different lol.
haha
twin thanks ah. =)
i will think of you one.
okie haha. and for goodness sake please take care of yourself can?
aiyoh.
sleep more la.
haha
karling yap.
i know i made you worry lol.
but if you wanna me to treat the matter liek nothing.
i'm sorry i cannnot.
but dun worry i'll walk out of it one.
really.
juz gimme more time.
its me ba.
so nothing to do with you and anyone.
so no need feel sad okie?
darling. thanks.
i get wad you mean.
i know wad to do.
how to stand strong.
after so mani things happen.
first rong hui den you.
yah. =)
i'll grow up.
dun worry yep.
oh haha.
did i mention the reason why i'm home today. haha
coz i'm sick.
runnning high fever lol.
have been sleeping since juz now came back from poly clinic.
haha
so yah. boohoo.
but onli one day mc.
will see tmr hows i'm feeling lol.
haha
found out that i'm rather used to goin to the doc alone le.
parents now olso dun care one la.
no bf.
no darling. haha
so yah. i mus be independent lol.
oh pple never go to the polyclinic on mondayss!!.
they make you wait like two whole hours.
and thats at least.
-pengz-
haha
dunnoe la.
coz today wanna save money so went polyclinic instead of family doc lol.
hm =)
--lemme be your guardian angel--
5:12 PM
5:12 PM
Thursday, August 25, 2005
hm. kie
boo. haha.
changed the blog skin.
damn cool now.
a new beginning a new start ahha.
=)
whatever lol.
at most i dun read anymore lol.
yah. and i didnt put down msges for you.
ish juz me putting down my thoughts.
but yah.
i wanna to stop all this lol.
enough is enough.
please?
kie.
i'm goin crazee.
am i really real?
haha
whatever.
sth happen lol.
yah.
dunnoe whether i can say onli.
juz that i'm badly affected la.
so yah. whatever =)
i juz hope darling will be happy lol. yep yep.
wahahaha.
yah. dunnoe when he will see this olso la.
i juz wanna to stay happy.
trying to stay happy.
boo. haha.
changed the blog skin.
damn cool now.
a new beginning a new start ahha.
=)
whatever lol.
at most i dun read anymore lol.
yah. and i didnt put down msges for you.
ish juz me putting down my thoughts.
but yah.
i wanna to stop all this lol.
enough is enough.
please?
kie.
i'm goin crazee.
am i really real?
haha
whatever.
sth happen lol.
yah.
dunnoe whether i can say onli.
juz that i'm badly affected la.
so yah. whatever =)
i juz hope darling will be happy lol. yep yep.
wahahaha.
yah. dunnoe when he will see this olso la.
i juz wanna to stay happy.
trying to stay happy.
--lemme be your guardian angel--
6:38 PM
6:38 PM
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
hm. whatever. haha
i trusted GOD i have faith in him lol.
whatever you wanna to say den say lol.
haha
since you said is your blog ma.
haha.
moreover i dun see the point of us quarrelling here?
coz like so useless.
i olso never say i wanna to snatch him away lol.
so agitated for?
waste of time.
and get this right i have moved on. yah
oh btw. i had a good impression of you one lol.
so yah?
anyway i no need retake my english.
so i guess that means i passed rite?
so yah. hm.
i trusted GOD i have faith in him lol.
whatever you wanna to say den say lol.
haha
since you said is your blog ma.
haha.
moreover i dun see the point of us quarrelling here?
coz like so useless.
i olso never say i wanna to snatch him away lol.
so agitated for?
waste of time.
and get this right i have moved on. yah
oh btw. i had a good impression of you one lol.
so yah?
anyway i no need retake my english.
so i guess that means i passed rite?
so yah. hm.
--lemme be your guardian angel--
9:35 PM
9:35 PM
Monday, August 22, 2005
kie.
if i could join GOD i would rather do so.
-huggies-
dun insult him kie.
but i know i will live my life to the fullest lol. =)
dun worry yah?
i'll be fine.
fiona will be standing back on her feet.
dun worry.
alot of things happen yet i cant say.
yah hm =x
i promise someone de
and to darling i'm sorrie i misunderstand you.
i suddenly realise everything fit into place.
i will miss you de.
and i'm sorry i didnt understand your stand.
if i could join GOD i would rather do so.
-huggies-
dun insult him kie.
but i know i will live my life to the fullest lol. =)
dun worry yah?
i'll be fine.
fiona will be standing back on her feet.
dun worry.
alot of things happen yet i cant say.
yah hm =x
i promise someone de
and to darling i'm sorrie i misunderstand you.
i suddenly realise everything fit into place.
i will miss you de.
and i'm sorry i didnt understand your stand.
--lemme be your guardian angel--
9:56 PM
9:56 PM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
kie i'm not okay.
my heart is tearing.
i'm serious.
its been tore apart.
you and her getting together was the cause.
but it acclerated coz you lied.
i didnt want a break up de.
whatever its over.
and its stil bleeding and hurting.
i doubt you care olso.
coz now you got her in your eyes onli.
kie i suddenly feel really extra in this world.
seriously.
like for instance today take ct photo.
den max one photo was six pple.
den my grp was the onli grp with seven.
coz there's me.
whee.
i shudnt have gone sch.
i hate myself now.
and when i was really really down.
i really thot darling cared.
i really wanted to talk to you.
but yet when i needed you.
all i could see was blurly images.
coz tears starting forming in your eyes.
you juz told me. no i'm not coming that early.
there were cracks between you and your girl.
i seem so extraa.
i seem to be the one who caused it.
meebie i should juz leave ba.
you know how much it hurted.
i realli wanted to cry out loud.
but you suddenly dun seem to care.
suddenly seem so under control of your gf.
i habnt seen you for two whole days.
if nothing had happen mebbie seeing you today didnt matter that much.
but sth did happen.
or mebbie i juz dun mean anything to you anymore.
my heart is tearing.
i'm serious.
its been tore apart.
you and her getting together was the cause.
but it acclerated coz you lied.
i didnt want a break up de.
whatever its over.
and its stil bleeding and hurting.
i doubt you care olso.
coz now you got her in your eyes onli.
kie i suddenly feel really extra in this world.
seriously.
like for instance today take ct photo.
den max one photo was six pple.
den my grp was the onli grp with seven.
coz there's me.
whee.
i shudnt have gone sch.
i hate myself now.
and when i was really really down.
i really thot darling cared.
i really wanted to talk to you.
but yet when i needed you.
all i could see was blurly images.
coz tears starting forming in your eyes.
you juz told me. no i'm not coming that early.
there were cracks between you and your girl.
i seem so extraa.
i seem to be the one who caused it.
meebie i should juz leave ba.
you know how much it hurted.
i realli wanted to cry out loud.
but you suddenly dun seem to care.
suddenly seem so under control of your gf.
i habnt seen you for two whole days.
if nothing had happen mebbie seeing you today didnt matter that much.
but sth did happen.
or mebbie i juz dun mean anything to you anymore.
--lemme be your guardian angel--
2:12 PM
2:12 PM
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
hm.
which means to say he lied.
ask GOD den.
i never once wanted or asked for a break up.
when i got questioned by his mum that time.
i tried so mani times to call him.
to talk to him.
den on xmas we met and then
the next day HE asked for a break up.
say he couldnt take the pressure and whatever.
up to you guys to believe.
but thats the truth.
and its a fact i didnt lie.
i know. he knows.
GOD knows.
which means to say he lied.
ask GOD den.
i never once wanted or asked for a break up.
when i got questioned by his mum that time.
i tried so mani times to call him.
to talk to him.
den on xmas we met and then
the next day HE asked for a break up.
say he couldnt take the pressure and whatever.
up to you guys to believe.
but thats the truth.
and its a fact i didnt lie.
i know. he knows.
GOD knows.
--lemme be your guardian angel--
6:35 PM
6:35 PM
kie. fine.
i lost.
but i jus wanna to tell you that i didnt gave him up
i still loved him no matter how much.
its his mum that stopped us.
i dunno wad did he tell you anyway.
but i juz wanna him to know.
you to know.
GOD to know.
everyone to know.
i never gave him up.
where was he ? when i was struggling to attempt to forget him
and move on.,
and yet i can never manage to do so.
if i had a choice i would have chose to go same sch as him.
but i dun have wana.
i dunnoe.
dont you tink its so unfair to me.
when its you who suggested the break up
and yet now its you who said i did it?
hadnt i not told you i dun wanna let you go.
but you force me to do so. you made me do so.
i lost.
but i jus wanna to tell you that i didnt gave him up
i still loved him no matter how much.
its his mum that stopped us.
i dunno wad did he tell you anyway.
but i juz wanna him to know.
you to know.
GOD to know.
everyone to know.
i never gave him up.
where was he ? when i was struggling to attempt to forget him
and move on.,
and yet i can never manage to do so.
if i had a choice i would have chose to go same sch as him.
but i dun have wana.
i dunnoe.
dont you tink its so unfair to me.
when its you who suggested the break up
and yet now its you who said i did it?
hadnt i not told you i dun wanna let you go.
but you force me to do so. you made me do so.
--lemme be your guardian angel--
9:41 AM
9:41 AM
Friday, August 12, 2005
kie gotta keep this post short.
have to mug to make sure i wont tink anymore.
i'm serious abt it.
who cares abt relationships.
i'm tired.
seriously.
i dun wanna to bother anymore.
coz i onli end up getting hurt deeply and deeply.
not juz once but twice le.
really wonder why i'm so silly.
although i dun deny the fact i still love you.
and till now no one can replace that place.
but why am i wasting my own future away.
getting into one crappy sch.
ponning lessons.
juz to have you on my mind.
i know i'll never be able to step into the world of you and her.
so whatever so be it.
i never wana to love anyone anymore.
i'm afraid of getting hurt.
afraid of giving in all. yet nothing is returned.
my recovery rate is slow.
but i muz try.
coz onli i can save myself from sinking deeply.
i'm seriously tired.
whee. i wanna to do things that will make me happy.
i know crying nights over you wont change a thing.
but how am i supposed to control my feelings.
why give me memories to hold on then.
to ahem. sorry i tink you should know who you are.
i know i hurt you badly.
i promise to change. realli. i'm trying.
to that someone. i seriously doubt you will see this.
dunnoe why i fallen in love with you ba.
whatever. i'm trying to control myself le.
i lost. i onli hope to see you happy.
to her. i still tink its unfair to lose to you ba.
but what to do. he chose to avoid me. and his choice is you.
i dun stand a chance anymore. i juz wish you will treasure him.
he's precious.
kie i'm feeling much better le. yah.
i wanna to change and i mean it.
have to mug to make sure i wont tink anymore.
i'm serious abt it.
who cares abt relationships.
i'm tired.
seriously.
i dun wanna to bother anymore.
coz i onli end up getting hurt deeply and deeply.
not juz once but twice le.
really wonder why i'm so silly.
although i dun deny the fact i still love you.
and till now no one can replace that place.
but why am i wasting my own future away.
getting into one crappy sch.
ponning lessons.
juz to have you on my mind.
i know i'll never be able to step into the world of you and her.
so whatever so be it.
i never wana to love anyone anymore.
i'm afraid of getting hurt.
afraid of giving in all. yet nothing is returned.
my recovery rate is slow.
but i muz try.
coz onli i can save myself from sinking deeply.
i'm seriously tired.
whee. i wanna to do things that will make me happy.
i know crying nights over you wont change a thing.
but how am i supposed to control my feelings.
why give me memories to hold on then.
to ahem. sorry i tink you should know who you are.
i know i hurt you badly.
i promise to change. realli. i'm trying.
to that someone. i seriously doubt you will see this.
dunnoe why i fallen in love with you ba.
whatever. i'm trying to control myself le.
i lost. i onli hope to see you happy.
to her. i still tink its unfair to lose to you ba.
but what to do. he chose to avoid me. and his choice is you.
i dun stand a chance anymore. i juz wish you will treasure him.
he's precious.
kie i'm feeling much better le. yah.
i wanna to change and i mean it.
--lemme be your guardian angel--
11:07 PM
11:07 PM
Sunday, August 07, 2005
boo.
yah. whatever lol.
hm i'm okay le la.
much better haha.
ydae hohz.
someone wasnt in very good mood lol.
yah. hai. only know how to make pple worry ba.
-worries-
but then i like cannot do anything olso la.
so useless wor.
dunnoe lol.
den at night his gf came den haha.
they went for midnight movie lol.
charlie and chocolate factory.
hm. see him like feeling much better today.
good good.
-huggies-
yep i went for adult service today.
so proud of myself lol.
haha
dunnoe why olso la.
yep.
seriously realized that i missed gen 5.1 one alot lol.
-huggies-
haha miss isaiah lol.
although he like very very fierce one lol.
but then he got his soft side olso wor. haha
yeah man.
hm.
boo anyway i cut my hair le.
quite short ba.
hm cannot tie that kind lol.
yah. small ponytail one la.
haha.
but quite happi with it though yep.
i'm trying hard to recover.
yah. whatever lol.
hm i'm okay le la.
much better haha.
ydae hohz.
someone wasnt in very good mood lol.
yah. hai. only know how to make pple worry ba.
-worries-
but then i like cannot do anything olso la.
so useless wor.
dunnoe lol.
den at night his gf came den haha.
they went for midnight movie lol.
charlie and chocolate factory.
hm. see him like feeling much better today.
good good.
-huggies-
yep i went for adult service today.
so proud of myself lol.
haha
dunnoe why olso la.
yep.
seriously realized that i missed gen 5.1 one alot lol.
-huggies-
haha miss isaiah lol.
although he like very very fierce one lol.
but then he got his soft side olso wor. haha
yeah man.
hm.
boo anyway i cut my hair le.
quite short ba.
hm cannot tie that kind lol.
yah. small ponytail one la.
haha.
but quite happi with it though yep.
i'm trying hard to recover.
--lemme be your guardian angel--
8:34 PM
8:34 PM
Friday, August 05, 2005
boo.
a long while i blogged.
haha =p
hm. boo. kie i now quite hyper ba.
haha
very tired this week though.
dunnoe why olso lol.
like keep thinking thru stuff lol.
yep but feeling much better lol.
yah.
asking me to forget him is tough.
but i promise i'll try lol.
-huggies-
at least for now i wont tink abt it ba yah
dunnoe lol.
yep.
hm kopi gang is formed! haha.
kopi gang includes jason la.
wahaha.
so happi lol.
we finally kinda of made an identity liddat lol.
hm.
we made a ring!! so happi haha. den the six girls.
currenly known as
Shujun
Audrey
Fiona(me!!)
Esther(karling)
Tracie
Yingpei
we make kopi kia lol.
den jason honoured lol. make kopi o haha
so happi. =p
and we exchanged the angel and mortal pressies lol.
didnt expect my angel to be tracie haha.
but thanks anyway.
boo
sian.
wanted to go marine to work lol.
coz got carnival lol.
but then i wasnt wanted lol.
dunnoe la. at first wasnt feeling very okay
this is not first time like that lol.
last time food fair olso liddat.
den nvm. den everytime need cashier
i olso not called upon le la.
hm. mebbie i'm extra?
but yah dunnoe la. not goin to think about it le ba
i need to work man. need money i wanna to save lol.
-huggies-
coz i wanna to buy jacket.
kie decided to buy one cheaper one lol.
coz i tink .. jason olso think la. den the addidas one is super super ex lol.
but dunnoe la. =p
will see lol.
i dun wanna ma fan him to pay olso lol.
gee. dun buy then.
will think about it again ba =)
a long while i blogged.
haha =p
hm. boo. kie i now quite hyper ba.
haha
very tired this week though.
dunnoe why olso lol.
like keep thinking thru stuff lol.
yep but feeling much better lol.
yah.
asking me to forget him is tough.
but i promise i'll try lol.
-huggies-
at least for now i wont tink abt it ba yah
dunnoe lol.
yep.
hm kopi gang is formed! haha.
kopi gang includes jason la.
wahaha.
so happi lol.
we finally kinda of made an identity liddat lol.
hm.
we made a ring!! so happi haha. den the six girls.
currenly known as
Shujun
Audrey
Fiona(me!!)
Esther(karling)
Tracie
Yingpei
we make kopi kia lol.
den jason honoured lol. make kopi o haha
so happi. =p
and we exchanged the angel and mortal pressies lol.
didnt expect my angel to be tracie haha.
but thanks anyway.
boo
sian.
wanted to go marine to work lol.
coz got carnival lol.
but then i wasnt wanted lol.
dunnoe la. at first wasnt feeling very okay
this is not first time like that lol.
last time food fair olso liddat.
den nvm. den everytime need cashier
i olso not called upon le la.
hm. mebbie i'm extra?
but yah dunnoe la. not goin to think about it le ba
i need to work man. need money i wanna to save lol.
-huggies-
coz i wanna to buy jacket.
kie decided to buy one cheaper one lol.
coz i tink .. jason olso think la. den the addidas one is super super ex lol.
but dunnoe la. =p
will see lol.
i dun wanna ma fan him to pay olso lol.
gee. dun buy then.
will think about it again ba =)
--lemme be your guardian angel--
8:38 PM
8:38 PM