Sunday, October 30, 2005

i realizes i'm still confused.
realli unsure of wad i want in life.
i dunnoe.
i feel so damn lost suddenly.
mebbie at times.
i need to talk to someone.
badly.
i dunnoe wad i wana.
i realli dunnoe.
now my results suck yet the sch wants to promote me.
i dunnoe.
and i need to drop one sub but but..
mr neo and mummy want me be practical and drop chem.
since i missed the whole spa.
i dunnoe.
but i hated .. physics.
hai i dunnoe.
and i dont want to stay in ny.
partly of me want to transfer to sajc.
i dunnoe will they accept me though.
whee. why coz i no project work.
all b'coz i didnt like ny.
i dunnoe.
i'm also afraid that.
that that history might repeats though.
realli.
hai. sigh.
mebbie i should go poly and take htm.
i dunnoe wad i want.
can someone guide me please.
save me.
i'm in agonyyy.

--lemme be your guardian angel--
10:05 PM

Saturday, October 29, 2005

i dunnoe wads wrong.
period.
i'm still confused.
and . i dunnoe wad i wana.
in rotiboy.
in friends.
in sch.
in life.

saying i love you is not the words
i want to hear from you.
it's not that i want you not to say
but if you really knew.
how easy it would be
to show me how you feel.
more than words is all you have to do.
to make it real.
that you wouldnt have to say
that you love me.
cause i'd already know.
its over.
i'm living in memories.
i suppose thats all i want to be

--lemme be your guardian angel--
8:56 PM

Thursday, October 27, 2005

when did things get so unhappy and everything.
when was the last time i could actualli sit down and really talk?
and someone do really understand how i feel?
i dunnoe.
in confused mood.
starting to realise that wad i seek for
dont always work.
what i tink i'll get.. i wont get.
starting to wont bother.
starting to selectively bo-chuup.

boohoo.
later got the stupid customer thingy.
thot at first is mei teaching so was tinking yah.
go lol.
give her face.
den now is that timothy teaching...
ahHhhh..
jiu wo man.
i dont wanna to go le.
oppz.
haha
but thank GOD that safety all goin.
without karling lol.
whee. coz .. karling got sch den is bo bian de.
and charlie's angels is goin.
hm. will see =)

--lemme be your guardian angel--
9:25 AM

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

ah..
everything is laggy.
everything is so messy
note to that someone:
i cannot believe that i actualli thot you were innocent lol
-puke-
i'm pissed.
dun understand why is there a need to lie.
dunnoe wad you're thinking.
stop telling me stupid things.
you're not worth it.
i mean it.
you're making no sense at all.
please. stop it.
dun act le.
you're not pitiful at all.

something i realli dun understand,
adults you guys always ask us to be frank with you.
but why you keep hiding and gossip.
izzit really worth it.
if you wana. tell me straight in the face.
prove it yourself that you're capable.
if you're not den forget it.
stop holdin on to things that you gave up and never let pple fight for it lol.
i really dun understand

--lemme be your guardian angel--
3:14 PM

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

How you spell your name...
Ok here is what youdo....
below is the alphabet with descriptions nextto them.
Spell your name by copying and pastingthe letter and descriptions.
Post it and let's seewhat you are made of!!

A- You cause alot of trouble.
B - You are always cautious when it comes tomeeting new people.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you, andarent shy to show it
D- You have trouble trusting people.
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H - You are not judgmental
I - Love is something you deeply believe in
J - Jealousy
K - You like to try new things.
L - You are always smiling and making otherssmile.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You never let people tell you what to do.
O - You are very open- minded.
P - You are very friendly and understanding
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - You are a social butterfly.
S - You like your privacy.
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to people'sstandards.
V - You like to work, but you always want abreak.
W - You are very broad minded.
X - You have a very good physique and looks.
Y - You can be quiet when you have somethingon ur mind
Z - You're always fighting with someone

quite interesting yah =)

--lemme be your guardian angel--
7:38 PM

the first thing that came to my mind,
i wanted you beside me.
wateva relationship we have, friends or couple, i don't care.
jus wanted you beside me to share the view.
it might sound weak but i cried.
the whole Night.
i don't know what happened...
i wished i could hold on to you.
i know i wanted you and i still wan you.
things might not look good i know.
but i'll try.
now, my life's totally changed...
it suck. all alone...
i really feel that i'm alone...
i don't need someone.
i don't need anyone.
i need you, only you...
until You're back here baby...
miss you, wan you,need you so...
until You're back here baby...
there's a feeling inside, i wan you to know..

boohoo.
lots of things running thru my mind.so unsure of things.

memories. am i really asking alot from you.
dunnoe la. hai
-sigh-
sian.
i'm promoted.
and i did fairly good. for promos.
interesting.
now i'm so unsure whether i should stay a not.
unsure of wad i wan in my life now.
so mani changes.
dunnoe how to cope.
gonna take things one at a time.
hai.
i'm rottin at home man.
save me.
how.
no school.
no work olso.
boohoo.
sian

--lemme be your guardian angel--
11:07 AM

Saturday, October 22, 2005

haha. now at where. boohoo.
at hm. =)
jason's house.
we tonning here.
so funny lol.
five girls with jason.
he supposed to be sleeping one la.
but anyway dunnoe la =)
boohoo.
today supposed to have bbq one but then long story la
i juz hope everyone will be happy la
yeah man.
i'm realli sleepy for one thing.
moreover like tmr is working lol
morning at ten.
haha. i realli wonder how wor.
yeah man.. hm. tmr kenny shu shu there got celebration.
haha. happy bdae kenny shy shy de daughter lol!

--lemme be your guardian angel--
4:20 AM

Friday, October 21, 2005

whee.
boo.
why is everything so messy.
why do i feel that i'm losing myself.
why am i feeling this way.
why are thing so complicated.
hai.
dun force me go sch. how to go.
when there's onli pw.
i'm not even involved hai.
now withdrawin olso so difficult one leh.
sigh. stay in sch library for wad.
why are the rules so inflexible.
my results confirm cannot promoted one lol
unless a miracle occurs.
moreover i dun wan stay in nyjc.
so i'm leaving.
goin from htm in tp i guess. hopefully they wont reject me
tracie say i would have the twelve choices in jae again.
so mebbie i'll put nursing i suppose.
yah.
dunnoe last resort gonna go shatec and take htm there lol.
-cross fingers

--lemme be your guardian angel--
11:08 AM

Thursday, October 20, 2005

ahhhHHHhh..
i dunnoe how.
i dunnoe.
why is things so messy now..
save me man.
i'm starting to realize that actualli being alone doesnt seem so bad after all.
boohoo. =)
went retail therapy ..
much better wor.
but yah.
still not feelin that well.
emotionally wor.
i hope darling will be fine
-prays
suddenly feel very useless..
like cannot do anything.

--lemme be your guardian angel--
7:05 PM

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

boo.
in sian mood.
aHHHHhh..
kie mebbie this is making me happy la.
at least i no need work at china square.
hai. i olso dunnoe how to help darling le.
sian.
everything is not goin well.
boohoo.
my results is crap.
rubbish.
dun bother asking.
but at least i know i'll withdraw from college lol.
=) yah.
today everyone is working.
i should have gone to sch.
at least wont feel ....
twin at marina.
karling at bugis.
audrey at tamp.
tracie at parkway.
ying pei at bedok.
woohoo. =)
-in confused mood-

--lemme be your guardian angel--
12:03 PM

Monday, October 17, 2005

argh..
i'm goin crazee soon.
period.
i'm working nite today.
i dun wanna work at china square. realli.
hai sat i already dragging myself to go down.
dont you know.
cant you sense.
working morning at china square tmr.
well done. so angel's plan of getting tracie out of there is putting me there.
have you thot of how i'm feeling.
haha. i'm super woman.
no need sleep one wor.
hai. i dunnoe la.
and guess wad. when i was thinking to like give in and help jason for this one week.
coz i never wana to make darling sad.
and coz he's sick now.
hai. i dunoe.
why are things so messy.
and so complicated.
nai nai and tracie had to work closing on sat.
which is to say kenny shu shu de gatherin not need go le.
i know. it's unfair to jason. i know i cannot make him work everywhere.
but but. hai. and to add on it.
i fri work morning at china square.
den fri nite gatherin ggonna taunt i suppose.
den sat morning work china square again.
woah. lemme see .. wont be sleeping for at least 36 hours.
hai hai -sigh-

--lemme be your guardian angel--
10:34 AM

Thursday, October 13, 2005

boo. kie
came back from outside.
wanted to get that top from topshop.
but den .. long story lol.
boo. feel like gettin a lot of stuff.
like that c and k slippers.
and my ripples slippers.
i need more clothes.
but this month i onli work like two days.
super no money le lol.
how to survive..
hai..
i'm rotting.
otherwise i will be out spending more than i earn wor.
pple muz really treasure how much you all are given to work wor.
even if onli 4-5 hour per day lol..
at least there's money coming in..
dunnoe la. i still have yet to know eveything in the outlet lol.
i'm still new. still blur..
will see how is things den.
dun wanna to add pressure to darling anymore le la.

--lemme be your guardian angel--
10:48 PM

contentment.
muz really learn to fully understand that word.
alot things goin thru my mind lol.
sigh. but yah. i hope by not thinking ..
it will be alright.
mebbie its nothing.
juz i think too much le.
boohoo.
yesterday closing.
did the paperwork for the second time.
i mean in terms of real life.
so far so good. lol.
didnt make any major mistake.
juz that took quite a long time ba.
haha. be will improve on that de.
johnny was SUper ubEr nice.
came down to give us a lift home lol.
he still that johnny full of rubbish lol.
everything was okay la =)

--lemme be your guardian angel--
10:17 AM

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

hm.
kie haha. learning how to be contented with wad i have.
interesting yah?
had a long talk with my kor last night.
thanks ian.
suddenly i miss fourcee so much.
i miss lyn.
i miss nel.cons.ele.cons.
when everything was so simple.
i realli dunnoe wads wrong so dont ask me.
please.. shall not think den.

--lemme be your guardian angel--
8:50 AM

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

boo.
haha. exams are over.
but i'm happy lol..
but but i'm slackin at home lol.
dunnoe why..
whee. pple date me man.
haha. ydae had a meeting with angel
and it was long.. i mean long ..
a whole long four hours haha.
dunnoe la. mebbie we're lucky..
i juz hope everything will go alright
everyone will be happy lol.
-prays
got like a long long list to do. ish random anyway.
1. shopping with karling.
2.shopping with mel.
3.meeting up with lyn.
4.meeting up with tho.ele.cons.nel
5.lunch with louis.
6. meeting up with marcus.
7. find my beloved addidas jacket.
8.swim.to jian fei.
9.meeting up with xian and yi jie.
10.visit mr ng and ms lie.
11.get something to wear for da wedding.
12.finish the book of memories for darling.
kie. the list goes on. will update when i rmb.

--lemme be your guardian angel--
10:18 AM

Monday, October 10, 2005

bOOOO..
muahahaha.
my exams are over.
i can party wor. haha =)
yeah man. kie next monday at one thirty
den i'm supposed to return back.
hm. damn happy.
haha. wah. i wanna to jian fei.
i want to work.
i need money.
later got meeting wonder wads wrong.
gee. i hope everything will be alright.
healing in progress already..
so worried about him.
-prays.
i juz wished you'll stop blaming yourself..
its jus that we are juz 17 years old girls
we know that he dun wanna treat us like that one de
but still we will say everything out den make yourself better den its over
you never see this olso la.

--lemme be your guardian angel--
11:35 AM

Friday, October 07, 2005

hai.
boo.
so mani things happen.
so little time.
how. boohoo.
kie. so confusing.
i'm so numb le.
somethings i realli dun understand.
i juz want to be happy.
boo.
kie at least got things will make me happy.
like. one. i'm so called free from exams wor.
haha. whee. why. haha. coz monday is physics.
so heck liao.
second. i got my pay whee.
which i can get my jacket and and my watch.
third. i'm gonna to jian fei soon.
as long my exam as long. my exam are over.
i can go swiM! ah-hah.
fourth. tmr meeting my dearest yijie and xian. miss them man.
fifth. i'm goin shopping with eleanor! yay =)
hm sixth. dunnoe le. haha. but yah gonna keep my spirits.
i juz wish we can get mutal understanding.

--lemme be your guardian angel--
11:27 AM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

hm. mebbie i shouldnt be out today at all.
supposed to be mugging.
wanted to have a quiet lunch with kor.
and also really study.
but turn out.
there were six guys there in total.
dunnoe la.
kie at least one thing is keeping my spirits up
i got my pay le.
should juz stay at home.
so much more peaceful.
wahahaha. i want get my jacket.
make myself happy for once.

--lemme be your guardian angel--
7:17 PM

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

boo haha.
i'm happy.
kie whee.
why coz.
one. haha. my paper threes are done! woohoo.
and guess wad. onli physics i have a little bad feeling =)
two. coz i finally can get my jacket le.!!
yay. like finally lol.
hopefully they have the colour i wana.
otherwise i gonna take the purple diva addidas one then
haha. den i'll be a princess =)
boo. haha
so fun.
third. tmr i'm free. kie not exactly. but at least i no paper ah.
haha. gonna lunch with my kor. like the first time i'm eating outside
out of my own money since a week.. but wei le kor.
so be it lol.
kie still in good mood yah =) haha.
oh this week no schedule again.
boo. i need money man.
will see wad i can do lol.

--lemme be your guardian angel--
4:39 PM

Sunday, October 02, 2005

hm.
very tired physically and emotionally le la.
i know you didnt steal him lol.
yah no worries.
yep haha. lala.
i'm fine lol.
boo.
this weekend is crap lol.. yah.
whee coz me no work.
at home mugging lol.
yah haha. supposed but end up teevee lol.
haha.
but at least in the nights i still can make it la =)
-smiles-
boo.
ydae. karling and tracie working.
twin at scotts.
ying pei and audrey at jurong.
hm. okie i'm bored.
no one pei me .. boohoo.
studying.
den today. hm karling and tracie still at parkway.
karling work even earlier lol.
nvm. tink its mugging time again.
twin is at jurong.
i tink she much more happier at jurong i hope.
she's out of scotts.
super happy.
at least not that worried.
nai nai back at parkway olso.
boo.
now all their working times so different one.
so hard to go visit them lol.
haha. nvm i sure go mug.
meeting mel later.
after mugging i'm gonna work.
i need money... aHHHhh..

--lemme be your guardian angel--
8:51 AM

Myself & I

    fiona!.
    child of GOD.
    seven november.
    legally eighteen.
    nus projects!

Loves

jesus! (:
family.
generations.

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